blessing! disguise or for truth?

as early as we are fetus we are blessed by God the power to live, we should be happy that for the million of sperm that enter the womb of our mother we are the one that finally made... we are blessed that we have our life to exist in this wonderful world but sometimes made you nostalgic!!!..
bless, blessing, blessed... bless a imple word that comprised the meaning wonderful, thankful and saintful...,
we people believed that once we got the perfect life we are blessed, but thats not all being blessed are making your spiritual life happy without any hasitation or doubt.. even me im not that worthy to be bleesed by GOd to be a happy person today because i made so many mistakes in life that contadict his holy word.. i made so my moves that can be classified as satan work, but why he gave me this life? im not questioning God about my existince , but all in my mind is doubt.. i love my life today that God given me, and i really thankful to God for giving this to me, even though deep in my heart i dont deserve this!!

chasing your own self

it's been a while since i wrote draft in this profile but i guess its good to be back again.. life is full of mystery isnt it? we cant figure out why we are living in this world full of fake things? maybe, just maybe because we are here to find what we should be found for our own greatness and salvation... or maybe we are here to search are own self for us to acknowledge the best thing in life even though its just fake or something!!!..
for today i just realized that eventhough we are not givin the ability to be self actualized but we are given byGOD the ability and power to help other people to actualized thier individual life... we had givin us the oppurtunity to show to other was is the best way for our self and for the others.. brothers and sisters in chirst today we can change our selves to the better way to our LOrd Jesus Crist!!!! may love and blessing showered upon us all!!